I Hope I Don't Fall Asleep at the Keyboard

I was home for three days once I got back from camping. We are going to leave again to go camping after my piano lesson tomorrow. I am sleepy but bored so I am typing this post whilist trying to stay concious. More work has been done on my room in the past three days too. I think the scariest question will be how many gallons total of paint were used on everything in my room that I painted. O_o That would probably be a pretty big number. My parents asked me what I wanted for my birthday this year...Well it was a tempting thought because there was about three things I was currently drooling over: Guild Wars (PC game), one of Tool's CD's (music CD), and a cell phone. I decided I could always get the Tool CD and Guild Wars another time. For almost two years my mother has complained about the phone bill being so high because all my friends are long distance, so I bugged her to let me get a cell phone and share a plan with her cell phone. When she asked what I wanted for my birthday I decided to ask for a cell phone. With my luck she will probably let me get my eyebrow pierced before I get a cell phone (my mom won't even let me get my eyebrow pierced). A cell phone would make things easier. Well I am getting sleepy. Until next time!

Song of the Day: "Invincible" - Pat Benatar

Well, well....

I have finally returned from camping again...but again, I am only going to stay home for two days, then returning to go camping again....Argh! I want to stay home for two weeks at the most! My summer is slowy devouring itself before I can even attempt to enjoy it. I have written three more songs and that make a grand total of seven songs written so far. We have finally decided on our band name and as I said before I am not releasing it unless something happens where our name is copyrighted or something. The Ionia Free Fair started a couple days ago and will end on July 29th. I hope to go and take one of my friends with me. I'll see how things turn out. Until Then!

Song of the Day: "When I'm Gone" - Three Doors Down

Maybe I was wrong?

I have returned from camping again because we had to do laundry. I guess I was wrong about not being able to use the internet until I get back. I have been keeping myself alive while camping and editing some of the songs I wrote last time I went. I still wish I knew enough about html coding to change the layout of my blag though. I hate the color black, but when I was choosing layouts, it seemed to be the only one closest to what I wanted so I chose it despite it's color. I am slowly srating to enjoy camping more and more so I'll see if that opinion ends up souring or sweetening. Until next time!

Song of the Day: "Crazy" - Aerosmith

A Short Return

I am back home only because I have a dental appointment to go to, then I will return to camping. I have enough time to post again so that is a good thing. I don't have much to say except that I'm in the creative mood and my imagination is cranking out short stories, ideas, characters and all things under such categories right now. I am managing to survive my camping with the aid of my CD player, a swingset, and my beloved movies. For old times' sake I played Tomb Raider III yesterday. I felt like I was seven years old again when I was in my aunt's basement playing Tomb Raider I and II with my cousins. Funny how those memories seem far away...Well, I guess that's all I have to recall for now. Until my next post!

Song of the Day: "End of Heartache" - Killswitch Engage

Last day of freedom for a while...

Well this will be my last post before I head out for camping. And since I am getting short on time I'll just put in a few things here. I added a hit counter to my blog. You can find it underneath the link banners I have added. And I am running short on time so you will hear more form me when I return!

Song of the Day: "Magdalena" - A Perfect Circle

5 days in Hell

Yes as the title hints, I will be spending five (count on your fingers 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5) days back at Snows Lake Campground! x_x And I will most likely not be able to have a friend come over during that time. Last time I at least had Paul to accompany me for two days out of eight, but it kept me from crying my eyes out of boredom. I have started to like it there a little bit more, but it is getting harder to entertain myself as I get older...I truly enjoy swinging and listening to my CD Player at the same time. (I love CD's and iPod's suck because they are some technologic piece of shit, don't get me started on 'em I hate them and refused to get one when I was asked if I wanted one when my brother got his) But It is getting hard to even do that up there because I will swing about 2 or 3 times a day and I sit for about 2 hours each time so I survive off AA batteries, CD's, and a swing set that sits way too low for me and makes all my toes on my right foot go numb. I have a burn on my arm from the chain rubbing against my skin from the back-and-forth rythm. I tried throwing the swing over the set one time so I could raise it a little, but I swing on it too long and it causes the chain to grind and after four days of multiple visits on the same swing, the chain finally snapped. I got another burn from the chain running along my arm when it snapped. That has to be the fifth time I have broken a swing (first in public though). The other four have happened at home on a 20+ year old swing set. That swing breaking must be telling me that I'm getting too old: Currently I'm a month away from 14 years old, I weigh 115 lbs, and I stand at 5 feet, and 2 and a half inches. I consider myslef short because I am the little person amongst all my friends and have lost all hope of getting taller. I see being short as a sign of inferiority of myself, the same thing goes for me being physically weak and not being able to play any sport in existence well enough to enjoy it. (I have been told that I am a pretty fast runner though, but I wouldn't last a day in track because all the track girls are bitches and joining track isn't worth the harassment) I think I have bashed myself enough for now....I don't want to get onto depressing topics such as what I have previously discussed, but I do not have much to say, because I am bored at the moment and I usually depress myself when I get bored because I cannot think of anything to do. Tomorrow I leave for the "Campground from Hell", but thankfully I have piano lessons before that so I have something to look forward to. I won't be able to post on here for a few days because there is no internet where I'm going but I'll be back to tell you how it went. And I am curious if anyone reads these ramblings, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm just typing to myself here. Please comment just to say you at least visited this blog, it would make me feel happy. Thanks!

Song of the Day (because Word of the Day was boring me): "Cat People (Putting Out The Fires)" - Gosling

I'm Still Alive!!!

This time I had an excuse for this absence! (for once) I was gone camping for about 10 days so I just got back. But sadly I will only be homw for about two days because we have doctor appointments and stuff and then we will return to camping. I am starting to like the Snows Lake Campground a bit more though. I used to hate it and then we got a seasonal lot (permanent one) and I am getting used to it. I wrote two more songs (lyrics only) while I was camping and left them up there by accident! At least I'm going back anyway. My birthday is coming up again and I plan to make it fun for me this year. My mom wants there to be a day for the family to celebrate it so I will do that, then afterward I will have a day where I invite Paul, Elizabeth, and Jessica and we will have cake and ice cream, hopefully go to the roller rink together, then hang out and have a sleepover type thingy after that. That is how I plan it but I can tell you right now my plans can never go through completely how I planned them. I also had an idea for the cake. I am still unsure of the frosting color but I want to decorate it with gummi bears and worms and write Paper Clip on it in the frosting. My room is still in progress as far as redoing it goes. I have a wall and a half stripped of wallpaper. I have more to go. I have the paint and all that good stuff, I just need the time for it. Well, thanks for reading!

Word of the Day: "Orestes - (O-res-tes) The son of Agamemnon and Clytemnestra, who with his sister Electra avenged the murder of his father by murdering his mother and her lover Aegisthus." (definition provided by http://www.dictionary.com )

Work in Progress

Well, now that you know about my band (that I still can't believe I failed to mention a long time ago), I will start posting about the updates as we make them. We are still working on our name and may decide it in a few days. We are short one or two guitars (bass excluded), I have written three songs (lyrics only), and we still need to get together and discuss how or leadership is going to be. If we decide to have a leader in our band or if we are all responsible as a group. Even if we do decide on a name though I will not release it on here for there are many skanky name thiefs ot there just waiting for something to..uh..theive/steal/take away/...whatever.... So that is my reason for not posting our band name when we decide on it. But I will give an update when we do decide on our name. Tomorrow is the Fourth of July, so incase I do not post then, I'll say it now. Happy Independence Day to all those who read my blog (probably 1-2 people...) and to those who don't!

Word of the Day (yes it's back by no one's demand):
edelweiss: [german: edel=noble weiss=white] A small, flowering plant, esp. of the Alps, with white and wooly leaves.

Heh, heh....

There sure are a lot of time gaps between almost every one of my posts. I apologize to my blog for neglecting you. *pets blog* Well many things have happened: my school year is over so I'm on summer break now, I'll be going to Paul's house on the 7th to spend the night and celebrate his birthday the next day, I had spent the night at Paul's house three days in a row a few weeks back, and that's about all I can recall. I just realized that not once have I ever mentioned in my blog or journals that I see a shrink. Well I guess I never thought much of it but oh well... July is the last month I will be able to see my shrink, then after that I just have to hope that I am better. I believe I can make it. It's my last visit because she is moving to Ann Arbor and is going to work in a hospital over there. Well I did finally write one song (lyrics only) for the band I'm in(another thing I never mentioned...), but I dont think it is very good so I may trash it before I show it to the rest of the members. We haven't thought of a name yet, we keep debating over it. I'll tell you the lineup: Elizabeth is on drums, I'm on keyboard, Jessica is the lead vocalist, Paul is the bass guitar, and this is the funny part:we are a rock band and we don't have any guitar players (other than bass)! I always laugh at that. Well, I guess your hear more from me once I update again! (which will hopefully be sooner than I have been lately) Until next time! *waves*

Yay!!!!

Well recently my school has had about three or four bomb scares in a row and it was getting pretty old. We were already in lockdown and after the last one we had, we were put in lockdown for the rest of the year...sadly that also meant that everyone else in the school had to suffer because we couldn't have our dance that is held by the student government. But I never thought I would say that the pom team saved my life.....but they did! They decided to host a dance, and they were allowed to! The even better news, you may ask? The dance is May 5th 2006! That's this Friday!!!!! I know I havent' been posting as much as I used to...but it has been a slow year...but I believe things might speed up soon. Until then, I'll just keep on pushing forward!

And the rating is...

Well I went to solo ensemble today and I got a 2 for a rating. (1 being the highest you can get, I felt pretty happy) I got a red medal (for II) and a de-thorned rose. My friend Elizabeth got a 1 for her performance. I used the rest of the day to relax and enjoy my last night to sleep in until schools starts back up Monday...Tomorrow is the last day of Spring Break. I must live it fully!

Moo...

Hello, and I have returned. Nothing important has happened that I feel like writing about so Im not gonna recollect past events since my last post. There have been times when I thought about writing but I was just too lazy too. The events that have occured would be the 3rd marking period dance at school. (Paul went with me, naturally) It was fun because I was also on the student government that time and I was on the dance comittee so I got to help with decorations and stuff. Our band class went to festival agian this year...I was kinda sad when we did because flashbacks from last year kept returning and Paul had started going to a different school this year but we still keep in touch. We ended up getting a 2 (the highest you can get is 1) for a rating. The high schoolers got a 1 and they got to shave Mr.Parmenter's head (band director). He said that is the first 1 our school has had since 1984! O_o wow, 22 years...We must really suck then...no, I kid we still do good. Now solo ensemble is coming up this Saturday and I am participating in it. I am a little nervous and am unsure of what rating I think I may get so all I can do is practice and hope.

Another I'll Never Forget!

Yesterday I went to Paul's but the events changed a little (for the better). You see I remembered the Elizabeth had gotten ungrounded from everything except gameboy, tv, internet, and any other video games. So I told Paul that she was free and could go over to friends' houses agian. He wanted her to see his play so badly (I don't blame him after he hasn't been able to talk or see her since about some time near the end of summer vacation) so he invited her at the last minute. We stopped at Liz's house, picked up Liz, then headed for Paul's house. We hung around there for a little while, then we headed to his Grandmother's house where we played a little of D&D, and a few other board games. Then we killed some more time by laughing our asses off and joking around. Then it was time for the play. THe play was called "The Jolly Roger and the Pirate Queen". It lasted for almost 2 hours, but I thought it was a great play (hillarious too)! THen we went out for pizza, dropped Elizabeth off, then dropped Paul off at my house where he was gonna spend the night. He is still asleep right now. Elizabeth is supposed to be coming over today after her church gets out. That should be around noon or 1:00 PM, I don't know somewhere around there.

Yay!!!!!!

I'm gonna go to Paul's house tomorrow!!! I will go to the bowling alley at 9:30 AM, go home with him around noon, kill time at his house, go to his play, and then he'll drop me off at home. I plan to give him that kazoo that Elizabeth gave me over two months ago that she got for him, his valentine's day present (Kingdom Hearts manga volume 1 and 2), and use up the last 3 pictures in my camera. (Then I can get the film developed and add more photos to my scrapbook) I also plan to give him A Valentine's day kiss! I won't be able to see him on Valentine's day, so I'll just pretend tomorrow is Valentine's day...I get to celebrate it before anyone else!!! Some important events that have occured since I have last written would be: 1. I finally got 1st chair in band! 2. I brought my scrapbook back to life and I have started to work on it again! 3. I am on the dance committee this marking period and we are working on the Classic Rock/Black and White theme. Formal attire is the attendors choice, there will be blakc and white musical notes hanging from the ceiling and black and white band logos and posters on the wall. The DJ's will most likely be Mark and Tony. It is most likely going to be on March 10th, 2006. I plan to invite Paul (and maybe this time Jessica might be eligible for this one)!

wow...

I haven't been writing for a while. But I have been dealing with alot. Sorry about the absence. I am so happy that the dance is this Friday (yes, Friday the 13th of January)! I'm elligible so I'm going. Paul moved to Stanton over the summer but his mom is letting him keep in touch with his friends. My principal is so nice, he let's Paul come to the dances even though he goes to another school. I informed Paul of the dance so hopefully he'll be able to make it. Jessie and Sam O. are inelligible so the only friends of mine that will probably be there will be Elizabeth, Chris and Corey. I'll still have fun. At the beginning of last year we had chair tests in band class. Someone was kind enough to puch me in the chest before my test so (as you can guess) it hurt to breathe. This was vital since I played flute. I wasn't surprised that I lost to another flute player. I was in second and the other flute player was in third chair. I wasn't feelin too bad about it. this year the third chair girl went to a different school and I went to second and last chair. Monday we finally had this years chair test. I had practiced the whole week before and memorized all the key signature's for my scales. (this time I could manage breathing) I did what felt ot me as my best when it was my turn. I played all four of my scales (memorized), the selected parts form my Xmas music, and my sightreading challenge. Today the results werer upon the door. I wasn't the least bit surprised. I had lost...again. I guess it wouldn't have hurt so bad but the other flute doesn't even care about being in band, her mom forced her to do it after she tried it in the sixth grade and asked to quit,she doesn't even practice anymore, and she has disliked me since elementary. What makes me mad is that I tried so hard for first chair and she didn't do shit and she got it. It wouldn't have bothered me but she had to be sarcastically happy for me the rest of the fucking day. It pisses me off because music is my only true release from pain, and when she interferes it makes me want to maime the next person I encounter, friend or foe. Well that about wraps up today.

Word of the Day
Martyr: One who dies for his/her beliefs.

Happy Birthday to me!

Today is my birthday! Finally I'm 13! My mom got me the Clamp No Kiseki: Cardcaptor Sakura book vol.1 and it comes with three bonus chess pieces. They are so cute! I have Mokona eating an apple from Tsubassa and Magic Knight Rayarth (white pawn), Sakura Kinomoto in her first battle costume (the pink one) from Cardcaptor Sakura (white queen), and Mokodona holding a cup and long-neck bottle of sake from XXX Holic (black pawn). There are twelve volumes total (vol.1 cost $30.00) so it may take me a while to get all of the pieces. This year I wanted to have carrot cake as my birthday cake. I smelled it after it came out of the oven. Then after a few minutes I went back and smelled it. I kept stopping whatever I was doing to smell the carrot cake after a few minutes. For ice cream we have neapolitan and butter pecan. You know wht relly makes me mad? Whenever we go to buy ice cream for a party or something I never see a contianer or box of stawberry flavored ice cream. I have never seen it in my life. Never by itself (only in with neopolitan). I will have seen everything when I have seen a container or box of strawberry flavored ice cream. I have to stop talking about food because it is making me hungry. Hmmm... I believe I have run out of things to say. Until next time!

Where I have Been

It's been awhile since I've posted! x_x Well now it is the middle of summer vacation and I'm pretty much bored. A lot of good things have happened though. I have started playing the piano again (not taking lessons I'm just playing it for fun) and I beat Xenosaga Episode I: Der Wille Zur Macht! Now I can play episode II! I found out about a new site that I can legally download free music and AMVs also. It is called Ares Lite. I got into the habit of making homemade playing cards. I have made almost seven decks. Deck 1: Final Fantasy (FF7 through FF11). Deck 2: Sailor Moon. Deck 3: Mobile Suit Gundam Wing. Deck 4: Kingdom Hearts. Deck 5: Fruits Basket (currently unfinished due to lack of knowledge of characters and I don't want to spoil who is the spirit of what). Deck 6: Xenosaga Episode I: Der Wille Zur Macht. Deck 7: Rurouni Kenshin (currently in progress). I also found a neat virtual pet site called GoPets. If you want a pet (duh) you have to download the GoPets client thingy to use it. I haven't tried it yet but you can buy clothes, wigs, and accessories for your pet and make it wear them. I'll add that to the linklist. My neopet QuatreRebabreWinner is going to pay a visit to my blog. Here he is Well bye now!

That shell can kiss my glass!

Yay! Tonight was the last dance of the school year! Everyone had fun and I finally broke my shell (wall that separates me from humanity)! Hillary, Brooke, and Sam helped with that problem. I also slow danced two times with Paul!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We danced to "Crazy" by KC & JoJo and the second was (I think it is called "Hero"). It goes "I can be your hero baby!". I don't know who sings it though. They played hardly any country. The only country songs they played were "Save a Horse" by Big&Rich and "Here for the Party" by Gretchen Wilson. Brooke and I danced better when they played country songs. Sam helped out a lot with trying to teach me to dance. I knew how to slow dance and do the Macarina and that was about it. (they didn't have the hokey-pokey or the chicken dance or the Crocodile Rock) It was still fun though. I have gotten rid of "Image of the Day". I am getting bored with it. Tonight has made my weekend!

What heaven is made of

Yesterday at 10:00 PM the band class went on the trip! We got back at 6:00 AM and I slept on Paul's shoulder on the way back! ^_^ This year was better than last year! Alaina sat in the seat in front of us and when Hillary woke me up she said that we looked cute. Not much has happened today.



Image of the Day: A quiz result for a quiz I took. This was my actual result. Quistis Trepe from Final Fantasy VIII.

Pissed

I don't feel like re writing what was here. It was too long. I hit post and the fucker said page cannot be displayed! I checked back and it didn't post. I am questing for Kingdom Hearts sheet music for me (flute) and Paul (alto sax). It isn't going so well.
Image of the Day: A cute chibi of Sailor Saturn