Train Is Finally Rollin'

I started my morning with a healthy hour of spinning in the computer chair listening to Motley Crue's "Dr. Feelgood" album and then after that I got to work on weeding out the lyric mess leftover from the old band. I deleted the ones that had nothing going for them and I put a little work into the ones I wanted to save (there is really nothing anyone else in the band can say about what I do with the lyrics because no one helped me write them except me. Jessica worked on one with me, but I ended up trashing it.). So now I'm back on track lyric-wise and I have been writing some short guitar riffs and saving them in a notebook where I currently have them written as tablature only because I don't have room to put the notes on the staff next to them. I am planning on going to Katie's house with Hillary and Jessica and we are gonna have a little New Year's Eve party of our own. I'm bringing a cheeseball! Whee! Jessica might bring sugar cookies and Hillary is bringing chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. So I don't think you'll be hearing from me in the next day or two until I get home because we are all spending the night at Katie's too. Happy New Year!

Song Of The Day: "Devil's Got A New Disguise" - Aerosmith

How Life Is Gonna Flow?

As you have heard, I left my old band. The reasons were many and I believe I listed them before. I want to be a musician as my career. I can only hope I can find others who share the same dream. I am still young and have a lot of time to do it, but I can't help but feel rushed. Maybe it's because this world is just faster paced than it used to be. I'm hoping to get ahold of Mr. Edwards so I can ask him who that guy is in Carson that gives guitar lessons because I can play guitar but I'm stuck on a few things and I need some help. Piano is going fine and I just went up another level in the books again. (they seem to be flyin' by at the rate I go through them) There is a long road ahead of me and I am sure many unexpected and twisting things will occur, but for the record I want to be in a band that plays well and stays together for a long time, and I'm hoping that Liz will be the drummer because I love her, she kicks ass on any percussion instrument (I've heard her play, I ain't just sayin' that), and because I would like to be with my best friend for the rest of my life or close to it. But that is only if she wants to do it, I'd never force someone to do something, I don't have it in me to do that to someone. Like they say: If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans. Here's to dreaming, working for it, and making it. To myself and every dreamer that still has a dream: I wish the best!

Song Of The Day: "Cry Tough" - Poison

What the hell is going on?

Well, yesterday I was spinning in a computer chair listening to Bon Jovi's "Slippery When Wet" album, when I got a headache about four songs in. I ignored it, finished the Bon Jovi CD, then moved on to "The Best Of Poison 20 Years Of Rock" CD. The damn headache stayed until I went to sleep and couldn't recall anything after that. Then I woke up this morning. I was fine, and then I spun in the computer chair, put headphones on and listened to a CD and the headache was faint. I cleaned my room all day today and then I danced for about half an hour when I finished. The harder I danced, the warmer I got, and the warmer I got, the harder my head pounded (I swear I could hear the pounding inside my head it seemed so loud). The damn thing came back! Then it went away after a while (which was only about a couple hours ago). It wasn't the spinning in the chair part because I have been doing that since I was six. I think it might have been my sleeping patterns where I have been going to bed totally burned out and waking up around noon or eleven. Since my headache is gone again I hope it doesn't come back. I'll see what happens and find out.

Song Of The Day: "I Am The Walrus" - The Beatles

New Revelations....

Yeah, I'm still alive and I apologize for this absense..I have been overcoming a few things that were complicating my life. I'll give you the story on things that happened while I was away. Okay, Paul broke up with me on November 20th and his reason was because he didn't feel the same. It was a week's worth of sadness and tears, but I let him go and didn't force him to do something he didn't want to. I got a laptop for Christmas so I'll be using that now. I quit the band I was in because I wanted to write and play music that was different from what Jessica wanted to sing and I wasn't gonna force her to sing something her heart wasn't in. In Hubbardston there are very few people left who have lived in the town all their life (I am one of them but my life hasn't been that long) and an old lady who has known my mom for ages and me since birth named Billie died recently. That one is a long story but after her body was taken care of and the scene was looked at, they say she didn't have a heart attack and fall...The police and the medical examiner say she was murdered...Things like this don't usually happen in a microscopic town like this, sure we have our share of vandals and neighbors convicted of CSC, but no murders. Here is proof that it can happen anywhere. Jessica's birthday was around the beginning of December, she invited everyone just like last year, but i was the only one who showed up. So we spent the time drinking Sour Apple Pucker and flipping through a Rockabilia magazine and eating cake and playing with Ziggy (her cornsnake). Nothing else new that is major....I guess I'll tell you what I got for Christmas since I missed that day too. I got my laptop, Styx Greatest Hits (CD), Trapt: Someone In Control (CD), System Of A Down: Toxicity (CD), Journey Live In Houston 1981 Escape Tour DVD+CD Collector's Edition (DVD+CD), Aerosmith: Permanent Vacation Live In Philadelphia (DVD), The Beatles Love (CD), and Styx And The Contemporary Youth Orchestra Of Cleveland (DVD). Well In case I don't post before then, Happy New Year!

Song Of The Day: "Don't Stop Believing" - Journey

Sex Ed, Confessions, And A Little Game Of Truth Or Dare...

As the title hints, that is about how the party wiht my friends went. It was really fun! It had to be one of the best days of my life ever! At about 2:00 PM on August 23rd Paul, Jessica, and Corey arrived at my house. We screwed around and threw things at each other like friends do, then we went ot Main Street Pizza at about 6:30 and ate there. Then we headed to Rainbow Gardens Roller Rink in Crystal at 7:00. Skating was fun and Elizabeth finally showed up a little after 7:00 so she was just in tiem for skating. Jessica really didn't want to skate but she lost a bet in a game of pool while we were there: If the girls win, Jessica gets to skate once, and if the guys win, she skates twice. The girls won, but Jessica skated more than once. It took almost the whole 2 and a half hours we were there to get her to overcome her fear of skating but we did it. After that we dropped Corey off at his house and Jessica, Paul, and Elizabeth stayed over night. The next day we went in the basement and hung out in the crawl-space and played truth or dare. I got a lot of truths and dares from Paul asking me to define "orgasm" and other such things because he actually didn't know what they were. We also had truths and dares that were used by other people to find out the other's secrets. and The highlight of that round of truth or dare was when we decided to give Paul a makeover. He kept resisting until he finally gave in. Jessica, Elizabeth and I did his makeup and he asked us if we could do a gothic look because he had never done it before. So, we made Paul look like a goth (and I even got a photo of it!) and it actually turned out pretty good. Then right after we did Paul's makeup, it was time for everyone to leave. Overall, I had a great time!

Song Of The Day: "A Little Less Sixteen Candles A Little More Touch Me" - Fall Out Boy

The 14th Time Around

Today I turn 14 years old. Whee! Okay now that I have that out of the way I will recap what happened when we went camping (we are just home for a little bit but we are going back). Maynard (the kitten that we were feeding with an eyedropper) ended up dying, I finally got my cell phone, and that is about all the events that happened that even had meaning. I am kinda stuck on another thing where if I find out when a concert is going to be I will want to go really bad and my mother always says "no" to it. Previous times were the Final Fantasy: Dear friends concert, another symphony concert where they were playing music from Halo and Halo 2, Final Fantasy, I think Mario Bros., and other video game music. she said no to all of them. yesterday I was looking at the places and dates for the Aerosmith 2006 US Route of all Evil Tour and one of them is in Detroit, Michigan and the tickets are on sale. It occurs October 11th 2006. I asked her if I could possibly go and she said she didn't know and would see what we were doing on that day. Which I know almost definetely means "no"... They won't be around forever and they will probably be finished with concerts by the time I graduate. All I can do is wait until I leave home to see a concert at all...There won't be any good bands around once I graduate....yes I am depressed now that I have thought about this topic....until next time....

Song of the Day: "Amazing" - Aerosmith

I Actually Had A Reason This Time

I have a real reason why I wasn't posting for a little while. I had marching band camp and I was very tired after going from 8am - 5pm every day in the heat that was well over 105 degress farenheight, then we went camping while I was also in the middle of band camp. My cat, Maxine, had also had her kittens finally. She had three but two died of starvation because her milk dried up completely after the first few days. The remaining kitten is still alive after we have fed him with an eyedropper and since my sister had twins we borrowed her baby formula. The kitten's name is Maynard and he is about 2 weeks old now and his eyes are starting to open. It is good that he has made it this far, so let's hope he can live long enough to eat on his own. Since my mother is gone taking a test at the hospital (it's nothing serious it's a sleeping thing) I have to wake up and feed Maynard every couple hours in the night, but I'm fine with that, in a way it's almost like a human child except a little less work. My birthday is coming up and my mother may let me have a cell phone. The kaleidoscope future is an unfolding revelation...(yes I made that up, I have always wanted to say something cool like that!) Until next time!

Song of the Day: "Summer Time Blues" - Alan Jackson

I Hope I Don't Fall Asleep at the Keyboard

I was home for three days once I got back from camping. We are going to leave again to go camping after my piano lesson tomorrow. I am sleepy but bored so I am typing this post whilist trying to stay concious. More work has been done on my room in the past three days too. I think the scariest question will be how many gallons total of paint were used on everything in my room that I painted. O_o That would probably be a pretty big number. My parents asked me what I wanted for my birthday this year...Well it was a tempting thought because there was about three things I was currently drooling over: Guild Wars (PC game), one of Tool's CD's (music CD), and a cell phone. I decided I could always get the Tool CD and Guild Wars another time. For almost two years my mother has complained about the phone bill being so high because all my friends are long distance, so I bugged her to let me get a cell phone and share a plan with her cell phone. When she asked what I wanted for my birthday I decided to ask for a cell phone. With my luck she will probably let me get my eyebrow pierced before I get a cell phone (my mom won't even let me get my eyebrow pierced). A cell phone would make things easier. Well I am getting sleepy. Until next time!

Song of the Day: "Invincible" - Pat Benatar

Well, well....

I have finally returned from camping again...but again, I am only going to stay home for two days, then returning to go camping again....Argh! I want to stay home for two weeks at the most! My summer is slowy devouring itself before I can even attempt to enjoy it. I have written three more songs and that make a grand total of seven songs written so far. We have finally decided on our band name and as I said before I am not releasing it unless something happens where our name is copyrighted or something. The Ionia Free Fair started a couple days ago and will end on July 29th. I hope to go and take one of my friends with me. I'll see how things turn out. Until Then!

Song of the Day: "When I'm Gone" - Three Doors Down

Maybe I was wrong?

I have returned from camping again because we had to do laundry. I guess I was wrong about not being able to use the internet until I get back. I have been keeping myself alive while camping and editing some of the songs I wrote last time I went. I still wish I knew enough about html coding to change the layout of my blag though. I hate the color black, but when I was choosing layouts, it seemed to be the only one closest to what I wanted so I chose it despite it's color. I am slowly srating to enjoy camping more and more so I'll see if that opinion ends up souring or sweetening. Until next time!

Song of the Day: "Crazy" - Aerosmith

A Short Return

I am back home only because I have a dental appointment to go to, then I will return to camping. I have enough time to post again so that is a good thing. I don't have much to say except that I'm in the creative mood and my imagination is cranking out short stories, ideas, characters and all things under such categories right now. I am managing to survive my camping with the aid of my CD player, a swingset, and my beloved movies. For old times' sake I played Tomb Raider III yesterday. I felt like I was seven years old again when I was in my aunt's basement playing Tomb Raider I and II with my cousins. Funny how those memories seem far away...Well, I guess that's all I have to recall for now. Until my next post!

Song of the Day: "End of Heartache" - Killswitch Engage

Last day of freedom for a while...

Well this will be my last post before I head out for camping. And since I am getting short on time I'll just put in a few things here. I added a hit counter to my blog. You can find it underneath the link banners I have added. And I am running short on time so you will hear more form me when I return!

Song of the Day: "Magdalena" - A Perfect Circle

5 days in Hell

Yes as the title hints, I will be spending five (count on your fingers 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5) days back at Snows Lake Campground! x_x And I will most likely not be able to have a friend come over during that time. Last time I at least had Paul to accompany me for two days out of eight, but it kept me from crying my eyes out of boredom. I have started to like it there a little bit more, but it is getting harder to entertain myself as I get older...I truly enjoy swinging and listening to my CD Player at the same time. (I love CD's and iPod's suck because they are some technologic piece of shit, don't get me started on 'em I hate them and refused to get one when I was asked if I wanted one when my brother got his) But It is getting hard to even do that up there because I will swing about 2 or 3 times a day and I sit for about 2 hours each time so I survive off AA batteries, CD's, and a swing set that sits way too low for me and makes all my toes on my right foot go numb. I have a burn on my arm from the chain rubbing against my skin from the back-and-forth rythm. I tried throwing the swing over the set one time so I could raise it a little, but I swing on it too long and it causes the chain to grind and after four days of multiple visits on the same swing, the chain finally snapped. I got another burn from the chain running along my arm when it snapped. That has to be the fifth time I have broken a swing (first in public though). The other four have happened at home on a 20+ year old swing set. That swing breaking must be telling me that I'm getting too old: Currently I'm a month away from 14 years old, I weigh 115 lbs, and I stand at 5 feet, and 2 and a half inches. I consider myslef short because I am the little person amongst all my friends and have lost all hope of getting taller. I see being short as a sign of inferiority of myself, the same thing goes for me being physically weak and not being able to play any sport in existence well enough to enjoy it. (I have been told that I am a pretty fast runner though, but I wouldn't last a day in track because all the track girls are bitches and joining track isn't worth the harassment) I think I have bashed myself enough for now....I don't want to get onto depressing topics such as what I have previously discussed, but I do not have much to say, because I am bored at the moment and I usually depress myself when I get bored because I cannot think of anything to do. Tomorrow I leave for the "Campground from Hell", but thankfully I have piano lessons before that so I have something to look forward to. I won't be able to post on here for a few days because there is no internet where I'm going but I'll be back to tell you how it went. And I am curious if anyone reads these ramblings, I'm beginning to wonder if I'm just typing to myself here. Please comment just to say you at least visited this blog, it would make me feel happy. Thanks!

Song of the Day (because Word of the Day was boring me): "Cat People (Putting Out The Fires)" - Gosling

I'm Still Alive!!!

This time I had an excuse for this absence! (for once) I was gone camping for about 10 days so I just got back. But sadly I will only be homw for about two days because we have doctor appointments and stuff and then we will return to camping. I am starting to like the Snows Lake Campground a bit more though. I used to hate it and then we got a seasonal lot (permanent one) and I am getting used to it. I wrote two more songs (lyrics only) while I was camping and left them up there by accident! At least I'm going back anyway. My birthday is coming up again and I plan to make it fun for me this year. My mom wants there to be a day for the family to celebrate it so I will do that, then afterward I will have a day where I invite Paul, Elizabeth, and Jessica and we will have cake and ice cream, hopefully go to the roller rink together, then hang out and have a sleepover type thingy after that. That is how I plan it but I can tell you right now my plans can never go through completely how I planned them. I also had an idea for the cake. I am still unsure of the frosting color but I want to decorate it with gummi bears and worms and write Paper Clip on it in the frosting. My room is still in progress as far as redoing it goes. I have a wall and a half stripped of wallpaper. I have more to go. I have the paint and all that good stuff, I just need the time for it. Well, thanks for reading!

Word of the Day: "Orestes - (O-res-tes) The son of Agamemnon and Clytemnestra, who with his sister Electra avenged the murder of his father by murdering his mother and her lover Aegisthus." (definition provided by http://www.dictionary.com )

Work in Progress

Well, now that you know about my band (that I still can't believe I failed to mention a long time ago), I will start posting about the updates as we make them. We are still working on our name and may decide it in a few days. We are short one or two guitars (bass excluded), I have written three songs (lyrics only), and we still need to get together and discuss how or leadership is going to be. If we decide to have a leader in our band or if we are all responsible as a group. Even if we do decide on a name though I will not release it on here for there are many skanky name thiefs ot there just waiting for something to..uh..theive/steal/take away/...whatever.... So that is my reason for not posting our band name when we decide on it. But I will give an update when we do decide on our name. Tomorrow is the Fourth of July, so incase I do not post then, I'll say it now. Happy Independence Day to all those who read my blog (probably 1-2 people...) and to those who don't!

Word of the Day (yes it's back by no one's demand):
edelweiss: [german: edel=noble weiss=white] A small, flowering plant, esp. of the Alps, with white and wooly leaves.

Heh, heh....

There sure are a lot of time gaps between almost every one of my posts. I apologize to my blog for neglecting you. *pets blog* Well many things have happened: my school year is over so I'm on summer break now, I'll be going to Paul's house on the 7th to spend the night and celebrate his birthday the next day, I had spent the night at Paul's house three days in a row a few weeks back, and that's about all I can recall. I just realized that not once have I ever mentioned in my blog or journals that I see a shrink. Well I guess I never thought much of it but oh well... July is the last month I will be able to see my shrink, then after that I just have to hope that I am better. I believe I can make it. It's my last visit because she is moving to Ann Arbor and is going to work in a hospital over there. Well I did finally write one song (lyrics only) for the band I'm in(another thing I never mentioned...), but I dont think it is very good so I may trash it before I show it to the rest of the members. We haven't thought of a name yet, we keep debating over it. I'll tell you the lineup: Elizabeth is on drums, I'm on keyboard, Jessica is the lead vocalist, Paul is the bass guitar, and this is the funny part:we are a rock band and we don't have any guitar players (other than bass)! I always laugh at that. Well, I guess your hear more from me once I update again! (which will hopefully be sooner than I have been lately) Until next time! *waves*

Yay!!!!

Well recently my school has had about three or four bomb scares in a row and it was getting pretty old. We were already in lockdown and after the last one we had, we were put in lockdown for the rest of the year...sadly that also meant that everyone else in the school had to suffer because we couldn't have our dance that is held by the student government. But I never thought I would say that the pom team saved my life.....but they did! They decided to host a dance, and they were allowed to! The even better news, you may ask? The dance is May 5th 2006! That's this Friday!!!!! I know I havent' been posting as much as I used to...but it has been a slow year...but I believe things might speed up soon. Until then, I'll just keep on pushing forward!

And the rating is...

Well I went to solo ensemble today and I got a 2 for a rating. (1 being the highest you can get, I felt pretty happy) I got a red medal (for II) and a de-thorned rose. My friend Elizabeth got a 1 for her performance. I used the rest of the day to relax and enjoy my last night to sleep in until schools starts back up Monday...Tomorrow is the last day of Spring Break. I must live it fully!

Moo...

Hello, and I have returned. Nothing important has happened that I feel like writing about so Im not gonna recollect past events since my last post. There have been times when I thought about writing but I was just too lazy too. The events that have occured would be the 3rd marking period dance at school. (Paul went with me, naturally) It was fun because I was also on the student government that time and I was on the dance comittee so I got to help with decorations and stuff. Our band class went to festival agian this year...I was kinda sad when we did because flashbacks from last year kept returning and Paul had started going to a different school this year but we still keep in touch. We ended up getting a 2 (the highest you can get is 1) for a rating. The high schoolers got a 1 and they got to shave Mr.Parmenter's head (band director). He said that is the first 1 our school has had since 1984! O_o wow, 22 years...We must really suck then...no, I kid we still do good. Now solo ensemble is coming up this Saturday and I am participating in it. I am a little nervous and am unsure of what rating I think I may get so all I can do is practice and hope.

Another I'll Never Forget!

Yesterday I went to Paul's but the events changed a little (for the better). You see I remembered the Elizabeth had gotten ungrounded from everything except gameboy, tv, internet, and any other video games. So I told Paul that she was free and could go over to friends' houses agian. He wanted her to see his play so badly (I don't blame him after he hasn't been able to talk or see her since about some time near the end of summer vacation) so he invited her at the last minute. We stopped at Liz's house, picked up Liz, then headed for Paul's house. We hung around there for a little while, then we headed to his Grandmother's house where we played a little of D&D, and a few other board games. Then we killed some more time by laughing our asses off and joking around. Then it was time for the play. THe play was called "The Jolly Roger and the Pirate Queen". It lasted for almost 2 hours, but I thought it was a great play (hillarious too)! THen we went out for pizza, dropped Elizabeth off, then dropped Paul off at my house where he was gonna spend the night. He is still asleep right now. Elizabeth is supposed to be coming over today after her church gets out. That should be around noon or 1:00 PM, I don't know somewhere around there.

Yay!!!!!!

I'm gonna go to Paul's house tomorrow!!! I will go to the bowling alley at 9:30 AM, go home with him around noon, kill time at his house, go to his play, and then he'll drop me off at home. I plan to give him that kazoo that Elizabeth gave me over two months ago that she got for him, his valentine's day present (Kingdom Hearts manga volume 1 and 2), and use up the last 3 pictures in my camera. (Then I can get the film developed and add more photos to my scrapbook) I also plan to give him A Valentine's day kiss! I won't be able to see him on Valentine's day, so I'll just pretend tomorrow is Valentine's day...I get to celebrate it before anyone else!!! Some important events that have occured since I have last written would be: 1. I finally got 1st chair in band! 2. I brought my scrapbook back to life and I have started to work on it again! 3. I am on the dance committee this marking period and we are working on the Classic Rock/Black and White theme. Formal attire is the attendors choice, there will be blakc and white musical notes hanging from the ceiling and black and white band logos and posters on the wall. The DJ's will most likely be Mark and Tony. It is most likely going to be on March 10th, 2006. I plan to invite Paul (and maybe this time Jessica might be eligible for this one)!

wow...

I haven't been writing for a while. But I have been dealing with alot. Sorry about the absence. I am so happy that the dance is this Friday (yes, Friday the 13th of January)! I'm elligible so I'm going. Paul moved to Stanton over the summer but his mom is letting him keep in touch with his friends. My principal is so nice, he let's Paul come to the dances even though he goes to another school. I informed Paul of the dance so hopefully he'll be able to make it. Jessie and Sam O. are inelligible so the only friends of mine that will probably be there will be Elizabeth, Chris and Corey. I'll still have fun. At the beginning of last year we had chair tests in band class. Someone was kind enough to puch me in the chest before my test so (as you can guess) it hurt to breathe. This was vital since I played flute. I wasn't surprised that I lost to another flute player. I was in second and the other flute player was in third chair. I wasn't feelin too bad about it. this year the third chair girl went to a different school and I went to second and last chair. Monday we finally had this years chair test. I had practiced the whole week before and memorized all the key signature's for my scales. (this time I could manage breathing) I did what felt ot me as my best when it was my turn. I played all four of my scales (memorized), the selected parts form my Xmas music, and my sightreading challenge. Today the results werer upon the door. I wasn't the least bit surprised. I had lost...again. I guess it wouldn't have hurt so bad but the other flute doesn't even care about being in band, her mom forced her to do it after she tried it in the sixth grade and asked to quit,she doesn't even practice anymore, and she has disliked me since elementary. What makes me mad is that I tried so hard for first chair and she didn't do shit and she got it. It wouldn't have bothered me but she had to be sarcastically happy for me the rest of the fucking day. It pisses me off because music is my only true release from pain, and when she interferes it makes me want to maime the next person I encounter, friend or foe. Well that about wraps up today.

Word of the Day
Martyr: One who dies for his/her beliefs.